Mind Race

Feeling alittle more stressd than usual today
But without reason
maybe my brain finally caught up with me
since ive been dilluting its power
never sober
today it bursts
full force into my immediate thought flow
what used to be
useless brain chatter
diffuses itself with meaningful subject matter
and its bugging
that i havent myself decided which precides
other than the obvious
than this thread that is ominous
dont know what side
it sits on a fence
but sometimes im in bliss
and then i bitch
got my priorities mixed
before bills it is this
faced with books i am spent
dirty looks i dispense
daring negativity to commence to destroying it
yet i miss
and deteriorate in lieu of my wish
now this broken winged bird that cannot fly
is i
stuck but i cant cry
cant crack
all of these worries
i missed my chance
had plans
but then I danced the night away
preparing not for the next day
but to make my heart stay
promises made
and i cant break
cant crack
keep going back
got my mind feelin strapped
straight jacket
padded room
mental institution my minds in you
so not free
but wants to be trapped
till the bug bites back
so im feeling a lil more stressed than usual today
cuz where my mind aches to stay
its not okay that way
losing ground and i say
i cant cry
cant crack
cant break
cant back up
so im stuck stand still
while life catches up wit my mind.