Home is Where the Heart Is?

home is where the heart is
and mine was finished b4 it started
now were just walking around pretending
to be family
society it tells me
blood is thicker
but i see mine in the same light as wine
a spirit for the times
but home is where the heart is
how about on my sleeve
the most comforting place
it probably can be
id rather live here in this vulnerability
but still shut you out so u cant see
that home is where the heart is
and i dont know where my heart is
so am i anywhere at all?
even though i feel this everyday
still my heart falls
faith only fails
the truth never comes to light
and i lie wake at night
cuz this path still doesnt seem right
they say home is where the heart is
but i dont know where home is
so imagine how my heart feels
that in places where
love is supposed to reside
its just as though i stand outside
peeking through the window
wondering where i should go
if this isnt the place for me.
and if home is where the heart is
and they say to follow your heart
i should at least know where to start
but im in an endless purgatory
like im never really where im supposed to be
and it really breaks my heart
that if that is where home is
ill never be part.