A Funny Kinda Happy

mysterious...
me?
no im an open book
though there may not be much for you to look at
but im deep
what is what?
i bet u know nothing of such things
so does that make me a queen?
i bet not
so
i better stop
me...
marvelous me
useless all the time
but still u want me
from my beaten path i wont leave
no matter how many roadblocks
cuz no matter what it seems
i do this all for me
i hurt to hurt no more
there is pleasure at my pains core
always a triumph when my hearts sore
from a different reason than the last
cuz my intuition blessed me far before
id ever known why
every story is a lesson
i expect the truth and nothing less than
though i may not spin it in return
but ive learned the we can never handle the truth
and i am my own proof
that this is true
but it doesnt change
that id rather hurt
than play games
know im ugly
than be famed for pretty girl that no one really thinks is really pretty anyway
and we all know what they say about beauty
so i behold that which i feel
and i feel with my heart
and my heart is golden
in its purest state
i make all the mistakes
but im human
and god's creations can't be ruined
by errs in judgement
but by refusing to forgive
and then forget
and i have my regrets
but that doesnt upset the beauty i possess.
im blessed
above all things
and at times i must confess
i forget this
but i say this
to say
my mind is a puzzle
that even i cant figure out
so just cuz u cant figure what im about
from the surface at which u peek
and i wont let u get in deep
dont call my quiet
meek
i try to choose carefully the words i speak
but perfection isnt my direction
and money is no close second
see i know
that we live to live no more
and happiness at its core
lies in doing what ever
happens
to make you smile
and im smiling
so why dont you smile with me?