Decisions

Decisions
my indecisiveness is making a mess
need to choose to go right or left
but i stay stagnant
hoping a middle road will appear
what are my fears
of a freedom of choice.
i have a voice
yet i seem afraid to use it
will i lose it
i just cant figure it out
these decisions
stressin me
testin me
if i choose the wrong one
will it make me or break me
and the real question is
does happiness lie at the end of that road
or will it leave me lost and alone
i dont know
so id just rather not go
try to peek in the past
find a loophole
figure out the untold
and maybe this toll
will be easier on my soul
but i dont know
decisions
i dismiss them
sit on fences
try to play fair
maybe i dont care
but thats rare
my emotions just dont share
what im really feeling
sometimes
but sometimes
the fire is lit
i wont sit
i wont break
i wont bend
till i give my opinion
and sometimes
i wont even want
to acknowledge my presence
and in these actions theres no lesson
but theres no question
so theres no answer to be had
and foolishly it makes me glad
that i didnt have to think
and my mind
is the most terrible thing to waste
decisions
we all have to make them
somehow we must choose then
and never look back again
but how can i
if im not even really sure
i spend countless hours
staring at the floor
searching for the pattern
that will make this choice
a pure stroke of genius in my life
no strife
but even then
who knows?
decisions
my indecisiveness is making a mess of things
my bipolar road from ambivalence to passion
is unnerving
and its not serving
anyone
to straddle this fuzzy line
and not pick a side
and as i strive to find a reason why
i should follow behind either of these guides
my research leaves more questions in my mind
more answers to find
more reasons to decline
making this choice
or using my voice...
and if the answers in me
then why cant i see
why do i let life pass by
decide not to decide
play hide and seek
duck and dodge
its odd
decisons
must be made
there is some chance
good fortunes in my fate
and the way i equate
the longer i wait
to stand on one side of the line
my minds time
in certainty is certainly
going to drift away