denial

I don't want to say it
I know it
Just don't wanna admit
She was right
Without so much of a word
How did she know
My struggles run so deep
When I've tried
To keep my interaction so shallow
I guess I'm not managing to keep my
Heart in my chest
And my smile on my sleeve
How many people can really see through me?
I know the truth
And I just don't want to say it
Don't want to admit
I mean
You should have seen
What he done to me
Not the hurt so good
My heart bleeds tears
My face no longer wants to shed
Ears hear words hit brain like bullets
Used to flow like syrup
Mr smooth talker turned 180 degrees
Still making me feel 90 in the shade
And I still
Don't want to say it
Just don't want to admit...