love purgatory: no more questions

we have reached the end of the road
and boyz II men is not singing
because i do not belong to you
nor you to me
we were
having fun
at some point
i remember
there were times
when I didnt have to wonder
and whether youre aware
i didnt really care
but somewhere along the line
we did a 180
you turned yeses
into maybes
and questions into crazy
and while you were never punctual
you werent full of bull
and that i could appreciate
we turned lust into love
and we could have done without
smiles into frowns
made moutains out of mounds
we let our feet leave the ground
and now
we fucked up
see
i told myself previously
no sad love poems
no, "i dont feel pretty's"
no, "im not good enoughs"
no, "how could you run out on our loves?"
but presently
i feel all those things
and i could do without
believe me
you know me
i think
but regardless of my feelings
i gotta keep going
because i said
i wouldnt write any sad love poems about you
said these emotions wouldnt control me
even though they kinda do
shit i was in love purgatory
waist deep
and you refused to dip your feet
and that 180 became 360
but that extra 180 became me
and i couldnt deal
with starting from the beginning
i still cant imagine that you would wanna leave me
but
what
can
i
do?
move
thats it
forget
quit
and get on with it
we have come
to the end of the road
and no
ill never let go
but i am
going on....